Where have I been hiding? And Why?

It's hard to believe that it's been almost 3 months since I last posted anything. There have been plenty of times that I thought about writing. There have been things that I wanted to write about -- at the time. I could have made time for writing. I even put it on my TO DO list several times. But I never actually sat down to write anything until now. Why?

It's hard to put it into words, but I'll try. I didn't feel "together." I felt a little bit like parts of me were here, and parts of me were there, and I just couldn't pull it all together. I stayed sober -- that wasn't a problem. The problem was of another sort. I didn't know how to fix it. So I went into hiding from this blog because I couldn't find a way to speak about it.

Now, sort of suddenly, I'm together again. Things feel like their in place. I'm doing the things that are important to me, and saying no to (or shedding) the things that I no longer want or need. I sometimes have a day, or a part of a day, when I can choose to do whatever I want at that time. That feels wonderful!

And every morning, after I shower and feed the cats, I sit down at the round table surrounded by windows, light a candle, and have "coffee with God." Sometimes I listen to a reflection on video; sometimes I read from the Forward Day by Day booklet; sometimes I read from the Bible. And then I just sit and meditate about what I read or heard. And then I write my thoughts in my journal. And then I say the Seventh Step Prayer. And then I'm ready for the rest of the day.

Thank you, God, for helping me come together again, in time for Spring to arrive. I want to spend time in OUR garden.